surreality

WRITTEN IN: Abbotsford, BC - the WEE residence
AFTER: my godsister, Charissa's wedding

i can't believe in in abbotsford!... it wasn't until 4 days before the wedding that it was actually decided that i would come.. it's really actually very surreal... this is what happened... i called my godfather to ask for their address so that i could send them a card... but instead of an address, i got a plane ticket!!!!!!!!!... SO... on thursday night, after my night class, i boarded the 1:40am bus for the Toronto Airport to catch the 7:15am flight to Abbotsford BC. weekend happened - tomorrow, i arrive in Toronto at 10:26 pm - a friend's going to pick me up and bring me to the Toronto Bus Terminal to catch the 12:30pm bus to Kingston and arrive at 3:30... in time to catch a quick snooze and make it to work at 8am on monday morning.. oh my dear.. fun times.. i'm still young... hopefully =P... anyway...

- - excerpt from an email - -
i realized today... that i want to be a better person.. that's a very vague/broad phrase... but i really do. today, i met God in his presence for the first time in a while... not even doing anything... it wasn't even anything spectacular... just remembering the simple joys in life... i miss being around kids... and adults too... they have so much wisdom in even simple conversations... i'm always told not to long for the person i was in highschool.. but i actually do... in the fact that the person i was in highschool was content with everything... i didn't ask so many questions.. i didn't doubt so much... i simply enjoyed...i want to do that again...i don't want to do things because i feel pressured... i want to do things because i want to do them.. i know i say that a lot... but i really do simply want to enjoy the simple things in life again... i say this as i'm far far away from school and the campus area... i know it won't be this easy onc ei get there... as i get lost again in the work that needs to be done... i want to be so close to God again... and i usually feel this when i'm around so many other Christians... i think i mean adults in particular... i knew God so dearly at one point in time.. i know that feeling... and i want it again.. but i'm so scared that once i get back to kingston i'll forget what that feeling was and forget why i want it so badly ... anyway...

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i know there's a lot of '...'s... and i know you hate them, but too bad =P... this is what you get =]...

i miss my friends